February 2012
28 posts
Why do I feel like crying every time I think about what could happen in the future? Maybe I care more than I think? Maybe. Just maybe.
I hope you know how much you mean to me. I hope you know how much I have to endure to be with you. I keep this pain and these struggles hidden from you on purpose as so that you would not leave. So my dear, I hope you know my value and actually appreciate it because if you don’t, I know that the day I walk out will soon come.
“A friend is one that knows you as you are, understands where you have been,...”
– William Shakespeare (via shrimppaste)
Is it me or have things changed between us? I can’t exactly figure out what exactly, but things are not the same. Is it a good change or a bad one? Please tell me its a good one. My heart can’t handle anymore bad memories, or anymore depressing endings.
wheretheside-walkends:
yesthisisduck:
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I think I lived in the past long enough. I have beat myself down way too much. I need to start living in the present. I need to let go of this sadness that has taken over my life. I’m going to start living my life again. I’m going to genuinely smile again. I’m going to get past this. I can and I will. Today will be the day where things will change. For the better.
Grab my hand and let me lead the way. I’ll take you to a place where troubles stay away. A place where happiness leads the way and shines the path. Don’t stray in that darkness anymore and let go of any wrath. You’re too beautiful my dear to be consumed by gloom, so come here and grab my hand. I’ll show you the way to move on and away from this nightmare, into a beautiful...
Because we live in a world filled with black and white, we look for someone to paint the world in color with us.
No matter how much I have to fear, no matter what I must overcome, you will always be my number one. You’re the one I can never forget, the one I can never let go. So now I beg you to please never disappear. Don’t leave me behind with all these memories of the past I can never go back to. Please don’t leave.
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Happy Valentines day! I’m so jealous of all those couples that get to spend this lovely tuesday together. Well enjoy your single/couple day :D
“It happens to everyone as they grow up. You find out who you are and what you...”
– Nicholas Sparks (via kimberlynguyeen)
I have become unable to voice my thoughts as clearly as I used to. The words I have had so much faith in had left me. These thoughts who have haunted me have become nothing more than a blur that words can no longer define. My wordless days have become equal to the gloom of those of the colorless days. Without words to help me, how am I to live my days enduring these hardships? Tell me, how do I...
If I said I didn’t care, I would be a liar. If it had been a different person then it might have been true, but it was different when it came to you. Everything you do phases and affects me. Everything related to you makes me care. So don’t even think for a moment that when I say I don’t care that its true.
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This life I’m enduring now has become my reality. Oh how I tried to avoid ending up where I am. I tried to avoid this fate, but I could not. This is another chapter in my life, but what am I to say? I want this chapter over as soon as possible. I can already predict all the misfortunes and unhappiness I’ll face. I don’t want to go down this miserable road anymore. Will someone...
I'm still here.
bbynicch3x:
Even if we no longer talk and our existence are like those of strangers, remember that I’m still here for you. If you ever run into a problem and need my help, I’ll gladly throw out my hand for you to grab on. Know that I still think of you, know that I still care. I haven’t disappeared completely from your life just yet, so just remember that I’m still here and I’ll be your...
January 2012
28 posts
Hope always seems to desert me when I need it most. Why must you kick me down when I just began to stand again? Do you enjoy watching me suffer? Well so be it then. I’ll just stand here and be a victim to your abuse. There is nothing more I can do at this point.
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I hate people who assume they know what I want without even asking. When did you become me? When could you read my mind? Oh right YOU CANT. So fuck you to all those who assume that they can.
I refuse to say these words that have entered my mind. Why? Because I’m afraid of them coming true..
I’m not depressed anymore. I could finally stop looking back into the past. I could finally stop faking smiles and show a legit smile again. And mostly I can start heading towards a brighter future now that I’m stronger.
For the first time in ages, I woke up wishing for my dream to be reality.
“Despite everything, I believe that people are really good at heart.”
– Anne Frank (via theprincessleah)
No matter how open I may be, I like to leave some things a secret and hidden in the dark. Its no fun if there are no secrets to uncover like a mystery novel.
You can glance at a clock and keep time, but you can only let so much time pass by. You can think all you want about a decision, but it’ll pass by if you wait too long. You can be cautious when dealing with love, but too much caution can lead it to be taken away. You can give up hope, but keep in mind that its the same as giving up your life. Time is too short to so live a little. Take...
This may seem insane, but I’m starting to fall in love with him. Not the crush love where it fades within days, but the love where it’ll stay with you for the rest of your life.
Its so hard trying to be happy when you know there is something missing in your life. I try to keep my days occupied with petty thoughts and activities, but I still can’t get rid of this loneliness deep inside.
I got my license yesterday 2 days before my permit expired. YAY :D Then I slept all day.. What a productive day.
I hope I never have to say goodbye.
I hate those days where I’m wishing for you to be next to me. I miss you so much that it driving me nuts.
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So my club president called me and asked me to be one of the delegates from my school to vote for the new LTG for next year. I’m excited to see who’s running. Those who are running better impress me if they want to get my vote! ~
I can’t believe Conclave is almost here, which means the terms are ending, which means DCON IS COMING SOON! I’m excited!